Overseas medic grad

This is an honest entry for those who are currently studying medicine overseas.

People used to say enjoy while you studying.

It is true. Damn true.

Enjoy working is oxymoron, as working by definition is undesirable.

Enjoy studying is possible, especially if you happened to do well every year in year out.

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Working back home in Malaysia is.....honestly, unpleasurable.

The Oncall system is, to me, the worst human idea after gay sex.

It expects a houseman/human to perform at the highest level during his/her lowest point of the day, oxymoron.

We, human, be it houseman or MO, or specialist, or consultant, need to sleep.

We have been trained to sleep. Of course i can stay awake for 36 hours, but I would not be able to perform at the same level for 36 hours.

There will be times I dozed off. Inevitable.

This is what our parents taught us since young.

Eat properly, bath properly and sleep properly. When the time comes.

During oncall, sleeping is not an absolute rarity. It is actually at your own risk.

Honestly, I have not slept, leaving my ward, yet during my past months of active calls.

Reason?

I am a good houseman? I am a hardworking houseman?

None of the above.

I am too scared.

I am scared when something happened, I am sleeping and bosses looking for me.

The other day, I was sleeping during my passive call (thats when you are oncall to go Operation Theater if there's any emergency case)

I missed my boss's phone call.

This boss of mine is very very nice lady. She didnt scold me. She just told me.

At that time, I felt damn bad. I felt I did not earn that 100 ringgit.

Subsequently, believe it or not, I donated the 100bux to charity the next day.

The point i want to make is,

IF YOU ARE COMING BACK,

do not expect anything.

No matter how well you prepared mentally, life is different.

My sincere advice is, if you have to come back, then come back.

You wont die. I didnt die.

But

If you have a choice to choose, perhaps, you should stay there.

Get some professional papers done, then come back to serve as boss. We need more nice bosses who had not gone through hell of housemanships and black old days of insufficient doctors then.

Statistically, you would be a nicer bos, and nicer bos means nicer work done. Trust me. It works that way. At least to me.