Sunday, June 29, 2014

First world problem

Recently my phone has been slowing down, probably due to aging as wel all do.

I bought the S2 during my paediatric postings, which is the second year housemanship - which makes this phone currently about 3 years old, if my math is correct.

Keep lagging, probably coz I am IT illiterate - dont know how to maximise the phone capability.

Anyway, looking through the internet to get a new phone:

Samsung forever?

Panda - Hua Wei P7

Just follow the Mainstream iphone5

First world problem I know.

Saturday, June 28, 2014


Everyone has a breaking point when the ugly side will come out.

If you think someone has none, you have not push him or her to the limit yet.

Top 3 characteristics of patients seeking treatment in Hospital that I hated the most, in which I will never, ever, able to find the heart to treat you;

1. VIP

Seriously. Give me a reason why your treatment has to be any more perfect than a rubber tapper.

Seriously. Give me a reason why your wait has to be any more shorter than a odd job worker.

If you are an VIP; or the children of such a remarkable person; just help us to relieve the burden of work in our hospital.

2. Sue you if anything happen to my father.


No doctors will ever want to touch your father. I am dead serious.

There is a tribal feelings amongst us in medical field, that when someone is rumoured to be issuing legal warning to health care workers (some even before the treatment is started), no one will want to touch you.

We, doctors,

are afterall, just human like everyone else, just with an extra set of skills and knowledge, and heart to help and heal.

We make mistakes, which we will nevertheless as we are all human.

We are all in the learning curves.

To be warned of "make no mistakes if not I will sue you", is akin asking us to swim with our legs tied. I rather stay on the boat.

3. Doctor's shopping

One of the biggest flaw in our system is the fact that we can seek treatment from any doctors in town, any hospitals within the border and get medications from everyone.

And that flaw is thought to be an advantage to patients (judging from the opposition of the idea of 1care.)

I have seen patient on 3-4 types of medications, all from three different doctors, and all same medications of different brands.

It is a grave misconceptions that taking more medications will heal the disease faster.


I have recently met a patient who was angry because his medications finished before his appointment and he was therefore not on any of them.

When confronted, he is very angry and places the entire blame on the system for not having medications.

"Doktor tak bagi, macamana saya nak dapatkan ubat. Appointment belum sampai!!"

I just calmly said to him:

"Badan pakcik tanggungjawab pakcik"

Might sound a little irresponsible but really, I meant every single word I said.

Essentially, our health is our responsibility.

Dont blame anyone else.

Side note:

Not long ago saw her in Giant supermarket. She grew up to be a beautiful young girl.
To think back how sick she was just 2 years ago, when she was admitted to ICU, ventilated and requiring IV line from everywhere and we even have to shave her to insert an IV line on her scalp because we have run out of veins to give her medications and fluids, I am humbled by the power of whoever up there and able to find a bit of reason to continue, my job.
(picture is with her parent's consent. Her father is a Sarawak FA football player which I knew from my stint as their medical officer escort during home games, and the big angry bird is my discharge present for her. )

Friday, June 27, 2014

Rounds and rounds again

Sometimes, I wonder what is the point of life.

Not to be dramatic, but then again and again I wonder.

Why is it we live to die one day?

We strive to earn money, and then spend them, just to work harder to earn another rounds of money, and then for us to find a place to spend all of them.

No money to spend, dont spend, dont have to find that extra money.

But right now, most of us, are finding money for person we care, to spend.

Sorry my TTM just got me philosophical again today.

- after a call that makes me feel like quiting the job I am not too sure, for what, and what for, I am doing.

Saturday, June 21, 2014


I always find my mum very, very amusing.

4 years ago she was in UK for my graduation.

The story of her admiration of the automatic water basin in the airport (of Amsterdam actually, and Msia also got la) and the cunning but hardworking parking attendant every morning who gave saman right on the dot if you din move your car when the meter started to effective at ?745am (my house is on 3rd floor with metered-car parking space below) still lingers nowadays.

But what I also remembered was that, it was midway through World Cup 2010 in South Africa during her stay in Edinburgh.

My housemate, a Malay, said my mum always sit in the living room to wait for the football match, and then excitingly watch the game with him in the living room, and was telling him lots of things; in Chinese (actually she said she kept asking Wafi which team I am betting on, I wasnt betting actually).

Nowadays, with nothing much to do other than work, I followed the worldcup very closely.

I would stay awake at night to watch the football game, and sometimes, she did as well (altho most of the time her eyes are half closed)

She would be very excited to find out which team I am betting on, and she would be so anxiously cheering for them!

Sometimes I cannot take it and dozed off in my room awaiting the game (especially the last game at 6am), she would wake me up, ask me what team I m betting on, and then switches on the TV and watch the game on her own

She will keep saying the bad things about the opponent, push ppl la, pull ppl la, etc etc.

Hahaha. funny I tell you.

So many players she wanted to send them off or substituting them off.

Luckily she is not a ref or the coach, or else, all the games would be aborted due to no more players left. :P

She does know a few things about football after this week, such as the half time break is 20 minutes, and the addition time is never more than 5mins, but I still persistently fail in my multiple attempts to explain the "offside rule" to her. 

Tonight the games are still ON!

Go Go Go!

Friday, June 20, 2014


Recently I had a random conversation with a patient.

He was saying that we, men, need to have something bad to keep us sane.

(He is still smoking despite having advanced heart disease)

He said he doesnt drink alcohol.

He doesnt go for prostitute outside.

He doesnt gamble.

He doesnt eat unhealthy food.

He just, smokes.

Then I told him;

Of all the sins we can undertake, if we must, like what he say;

as a doctor,  I would recommend gambling.

Alcohol kills your liver.

Prostitution gives you STDs.

Unhealthy food, oh well, as the name suggests;

Smoking gives you lung Cancer and heart diseases.

Gambling, is somewhat, healthy.

(I am in no way, trying to propagate the sin of gambling, fyi)

Saturday, June 07, 2014