Sunday, August 31, 2014


Time and again why am I in this line of work?

So much expectation.

So little appreciation.


If only I dropped out of medical school last time. Haihhhhhh


Wednesday, August 27, 2014


I dreamt of this place yesterday night.

Funny, so random of all the places in the world.

And of all days, yesterday was such a heavy day and I slept with lights on all.

Was supposed to do my write up for work, terfall sleep somemore fml.

Anyhow, It was a funny dream.

Weird place and weird story line with weird ending (oh well, ringing sound as I waited for the rescue boat)

They say when you cross your legs when you sleep you cant run when chased by something.

Actually maybe swim also cannot, cant move despite my biggest effort to kick my way out of the water .

and they say when you dream you dont see colour.

I am pretty sure I saw colour because the sun is orange red in colour in the dream!

Ok, dont want to dream liau. Power nap first.

Wake up for supper later!

Bye blog.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014


One day when I am rich, I will buy a dog.

To jog with me in the morning before I go to work.

And then I will have 6 pack liau.


Monday, August 25, 2014


What do you think of someone who suddenly shout out loud?
Sometimes we wanted to shout out SOMETHING just to say that SOMETHING out loud.
But no, our lives are full with concerns of what others are feeling and thinking about as a result of us.
Weirdo I know. Sorry

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Friday, August 22, 2014


I cleaned my room today as part of my KPI to do monthly cleaning of the small 2.5steps x 4 steps room of mine.

A lot of pharma drug high quality paper leaflets and their glossy name cards.

I have always think that all this are rather wastage of money and resources.

The way to go for branded pharmaceutical company is to focus on presribing pattern.

It is very difficult for us, to prefer one than the other, if both has the same indications.

It doesnt matter which one drug rep belanja us makan more, but more of presribing pattern.

I have always say that Bisoprolol has done the best job in naming their medications, of all the beta blockers.

Easy to write. (clearly win Carvedilol, dont you agree?)

Good dosing range. (win Carvedilol...)

The one I like the most:

Good shape. - (Uncle, got take the love shape medications?)

Many people do not have clear particular preferance between the three commonly used beta blockers, so it also boils down to the pattern.

So, what bisoprolol has done good is that when I was a new MOs, the particular rep managed to instill a presribing pattern into me.

Suggestion to pharma company to increase the sales of the particular drug:
1. Choose a catchy name, good shape, and good dose
2. Hire me.


Friday night emo song to go to bed with:

Good night people! (ya i sleep early)

Thursday, August 21, 2014


I boarded a plane home.

22F was the seat number allocated (rm6 to request seat, erm, better order coffee I guess)

There was a woman sitting on 22D. A small girl was sitting on 22E.

"Sorry, can I go in?"

The woman rushed out to the isle and asked the small girl, her daugther to come out.

The little girl refuses.

The mother smiled at me apologetically.

I said to the girl, "Then you move in to the window seat?"

"Okay!! But my mama has to sit here," she pointing to her seat.

"Okay,"I cant helped but to smile, it was really funny to me.

The woman thanked me repeatedly, the small girl still did not moving an inch until the mother came near enough, she quickly change her seat to the 22F.

I sat down, on the seatbelt, off my specs and sleep.

I woke up just before we landing, the small girl was deep in sleep, her head on her mother's lap and her legs were akwardly bent on the mirrorl.

That might be on me if I am still sitting on the 22F.

Mother-daughter love is beautiful.

Good night, randoms I know.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014


Off work this week for a course in Johor Bahru.
Hospital Permai.
This is such a big n clean hospital.
Yesterday reached too early and I walked around the hospital. Really big place. And faraway.
But I think mental health hospital needs to be like this. Far away from human.

I can still remember my posting in PSY during fourth year medical student; it was at a hospital on a hill. Good view, fresh air n I think the condition is very condusive for mental healing. 
Sometimes what all mental sickness needs is to be away from people.
Ok. Have a good day at work ppl. While I am lepaking in course.
(Dunno have to wait for how long before the next course :(( )

Monday, August 18, 2014


Found this picture during my random clicking of photos in my computer.

Not sure why I kept thinking of those student days, things I did, and etc etc.

This road, I cant remember the name actually, so I googlemapped it up. Forrest Road!

I lived just about 20-30 steps to the left, for 2 years (year 2 and 3)

What would life be if I decided to stay there then?

No la. I am not motivated enough to stay overseas longer than required,

because, I am too juara kampung.


#sayaanakmalaysia as well.

Theory Shampoo

Theory shampoo was a new theory that I eurekaed some 1-2 years ago.

I have always find it very amusing that certain perfume are more favourited than others.

Perfume by definition, smells nice.

Same with shampoo.

I havent come across a shampoo that smells bad.

Then why some are preferred than others?

This is actually can be, most likely because of the user itself.

Not yourself, but the people around you.

If you like the person who is using that particular shampoo, then automatically you like the smell.

Then it became - wah, why your shampoo smells so nice.

And you will never find the shampoo you use smells any tremendously nice.

Is it because we love ourself less than another person?

Or is it because we grow bored with the particular smell of ourselves.

And will we get bored of the smell that we think is nice or bored of the person who is using it?

Theory shampoo simply put into words, the concept of endorsing.

When you mempergodkan someone, everything the fella use, is ichiban.

And shampoo is usually the case.

Sorry, mid night rambling.

Good night people.

Sunday, August 17, 2014


I edited this piece from ori rambling 3 days ago)

I was oncall yesterday night and it was such a lively night.

4 MIs in one night, it was an ACS night indeed.

One particular case that I would like to share here is about this 74 year old Malay uncle.

He has very good family support, his two children (not sure if there are many more) was very nice people, courteous and understanding.

It is a well known fact that of the three races, experience past 6 months shows that in general, Malays are the easiest to deal with. 

In general, I repeat.

Easiest in the sense that, the Malays uncles and aunties are more respectful of doctors, and have good faith in us, and of course, treating someone that are not suspecting our integrity, is more enjoyable.

I have to say this, although it sounds Racists (yes it is racist) but in general, Chinese and Indians are more difficult to deal with. Be it the patients themselves or the family of the patients.

The first thing they will say before any consultations, or explanation of their conditions, is that they have to comment on the fault of the hospital, systems, something bad out of the fault of someone, that has happened to them.

"the nurse made me wait for 1 hour before seeing you"

"ambulance took 1 hour to come to my house"

"follow-up in clinic but never give me good medicine, just continue the same same medications"


I have kept this in my mind for very long time, because I dont want to sound racist, but I think this is not about colour of the skin that made us feel certain ways but rather the way certain race population been living in this country.

The same theory I had always been telling people that not all Chinese are good in Math because they have Sempua brain but rather they way they are brought up.

Not all Jews nor Palestinian are the same just because of who they are, but rather what they are - although this is more difficult and sensitive to be discussed.

Anyway, I wanted to say this;

Sometimes, when some race always felt that we have been second classed and being victimised in all ways; then everything they see is imperfect.

Of course I m not saying that you are wrong to feel that and that it is equal justice for all in this country, but to me; when it comes to healthcare, the skin colour is not a consideration for most doctors at all, at least for me and the people I worked with so far.

I dont think I would have the capability to change this perception (I used to have big thoughts) and make world a better place to live.

I just count to pay day, most days. 

But I hope that we all will understand that things sometimes just happened; and not necessarily because of you being victimised.

I shall end this entry with these two lines that I have read somewhere, (or I came up myself, cant rmb) anyway:

Sometimes we have to accept that our condition worsen as part of the disease process,

And not always it is due to the failure of medical treatment.


Anyway, the 74 year old uncle who had an MI, came to the Casualty quick enough, and started on treatment. Unfortunately the treatment does not work as well as we wanted, and so I referred him to the referral centre. I checked with the doctor I referred to just now  via Whatsapp and apparent his condition is good and should be okay. Uncle, you have lovely family and I feel happy for you and your family.

Thursday, August 14, 2014


Hospital SP also got football tournament.

But fuiwah; after gaining solid 8kg over last few months, I think it is time to focus my interest on chess or computer games.

Fitness level -10000.


Post call drove back to Penang; slept till 4pm then drove back to SP for the game. Played with the ortho team as midfielder/left wing, wasted a lot of ball.

Field football is so a thing of the past. Lol. Retire from field football la. Too not fit.

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

RIP Patch Adams

Heard over the radio of his passing.

One of the funniest man, battling severe depression.

We are all wearing masks to face the world.

And those who are not wearing, that is also a mask.

Everyone has something to hide. Secrets, talents, stories, skills, want, need, something there must be something.

And for those doctors out there;  Patch Adams quote is something for us to bear in mind:

You treat a disease; you either win or lose.

You treat a person; you will win no matter what is the outcome.

And I am a believer of those words.

Rest in peace funnyman.

Monday, August 11, 2014

Radiology Course

After working for rather non stop in July, this course came as a rescue.

In my department, the HOD determined which course you go. 

That is very different from previously, when each of us get to choose the courses you want to attend then arrange amongst MOs.

Anyway, my boss sent me to this Basic Ultrasound Course.

very informative i must say.

If I were to attend this some years ago, I might be trying out radiology.

But right now, probably too late liau la.

Anyway, got a mug from the course.

Like the effort. Well done Radiology Department Hospital Sultan Abdul Halim. 

Sunday, August 10, 2014

One FM

I think the morning DJs in One FM are super funny lo.

Like their conversation, so funny.

Makes my drive to work shorter. 

But when it comes to the prank part, I change to another channel la, just for 10 minutes or so,

I dont like to listen to pranks, not sure why, just the akward la.

Last time I like one loh, dunno why nowadays so chicken lol.

The super dramatic TVB show also I cannot tahan, the dramatic turn of event is not for the faint hearted person like me. (haha)

Anyway, this song in radio today.

Beautiful song.

Chinese songs are notoriously emo.

Saturday, August 09, 2014


My favourite number is the bad luck number for Chinese.


When I started watching Man Utd, I like Veron very much.

His number was 4.

When I went for Cross Country Run, I did not know that my EOD running in school field subconsciously makes my stamina quite good.

I finished 4th, 

And that was well ahead of a lot of the seasoned school runners. 

I thought I was winning the race when I ran past the fastest man I know in school, only to find another 3 in front of me.

All my friends joked that I am using some dirty tricks of short cut, hitchhiking motorbike and etc. Oh well, I was very dodgy then. Still, I guess.

Then I was roped into the 1.5km run during sports day. I has never ran in a proper athletic race before. But once the whistle went, I just looked down and ran. Of course 1.5km and cross country run is very different, the seasoned runners representing my school and state all sprinted past me after the 1km.

I finished 4th. 

All my years in college and university, if I am given a choice to choose a number;

It would be 4.

Also 4 signifies someone crossed leg and no need to work - according to my mother.

One day If I am able to buy a number for my car - 


dream on Choon.

# weekendisendingfml

Friday, August 08, 2014





Stay strong to those who are working today!

Keep Calm, and count to pay day

Thursday, August 07, 2014

Weekend !

Kept reminiscing life in Edinburgh some 4-5 years ago.

Life was so different then.

Money was not enough then at certain times (especially the last month of the quarterly JPA allowances)

I remembered eating plain Tesco Value roti for whole week, all three meals a day.

(now also never enough la, we human mah like dat lo)

Used to keep thinking future would be so bright and promising, will get this; get that, do this; do that, once starting to work and earn money

But then in the end, when we started to embark on our adult life journey,

all we want everyday

is to go home, 

hope not to feel hungry,

have a good shower,

and then sleep until bored and wake up naturally.

This cheesy song obviously has nothing to do with this entry; but I like her voice.

And tomorrow ladies and gentleman, I can wake up, naturally.

as I have no call this weekend. Off.

Tuesday, August 05, 2014


I drink coffee on daily basis.

Every morning I will make the 3 in 1 coffee in my very sophisticated looking thermal mug which fits perfectly into my car mug holder and off I go for the 45 minutes drive.

So nowadays I will have something to buy when I go Tesco or Giant.

Not just stupidically walking around.

And coz one big pack got 15 sticks only, I get to buy 2 different types each time I go shop!

(Syok sendiri I know)

There are so many types of coffee (only the 3 in 1 is taking into consideration), and I only like the White Coffee. 

From the famous Old Town White Coffee, Ah Huat White Coffee, Chek Hup White Coffee, Nescafe White Coffee, etc etc

I have tried most of it and arrived at the conclusion that the best, is..... still the best.

Penang White Coffee

Sorry I might be bias but this one really strong one.

Ok, back to Astro.

Monday, August 04, 2014


Masa itu emas.

Masa tidur itu berlian.

- Ang Choon Seong - 

The above is one of the self claimed Plato Ang's quotes some years ago.

It is true.

When there is so many things awaiting you to do, when time seemingly not enough,

sleeping is the most addictive, attractive and important thing to do.

- S..........l..........e..........e..........p.....

Good night folks.

Saturday, August 02, 2014

Weekend Ramblings

Some time ago I was very active in Medical Association.

Many people asked me why I am so free. So semangated. So enthusiastic.

The same was asked many many years ago when I was involved in UKEC, Projek Kalsom and etc.

My answer is the same actually; Because I like to do them.

Not all people do things, with a motive.

Some, just because we like it.

I like doing something out of my usual working requirement.

Not really because I am extremely charitable, or to boast that I have a huge kind heart. Or I am sacrificial.

No, just because I like doing the things - of organising games, activities, events - like hospital night, etc etc.

Anyway, just thought of these things because I was reading through my old emails (clearing emails in the weekend is therapeutic really) and I saw a complaint email from a Senior Doctor in ?Sibu or ?Miri because we (or rather I) organised the team to Sabah last year under the name of Sarawak MMA but no one inform or invite elsewhere doctors other than Kuching doctors to go therefore he is a bit pissed.

Actually difficult to argue with that complaint. He has got his solid point.

Next time make sure will invite Kapit and Baram as well.

or actually, no next time, dont bother doing it at all.

No action =  no complaint is the point I learnt from that.

Happy weekends guys.

(Urgh, tomorrow have to work already - Kedah, why Kedah)

Friday, August 01, 2014

Ampun Tuanku

Just finished this book.
A good read.
I am really a fan of zaidibrahim's writings.
All leaders must be able to write.