Wednesday, December 31, 2014

A very posh 5 yr old

I remember seeing an ice cream called hagendaz? In GAMA when I was very young.

RM16 - I was like no way man!

Fast forward now I am way man for such posh ice cream.

But my niece likes. So I buy for her.


Thursday, December 18, 2014

Why we do medicine?

Hypocrisy aside, we all have our own agenda.

People only tell you think you want to listen.

I chose medicine because it is the most expensive among the choices given to me, free of charge.

Also I want to be rich.

But after awhile, when we are in the position to help people and we are expected to do so at all times, it became more than just a job to be rich.

I can't make myself doing locums just to pay bills when the alternative is just to spend less.

But I guess when have family and all the priorities and responsiblities changes, so I hold no grudges to those medics who set out to garner riches.

Everyone have their priorities and stories. And everyone is different.

Who are we to judge when we are far from flawless and perfect.

Happy new year people.

Monday, December 15, 2014

Phone book

Found this diary on my cupboard's drawer. My mum's.

That's where she write down all her contact numbers.

With no names.

And the diary is of 1997.

I remember I wanted to have that stupid black book for myself...UPSR time.

And she only uses like 3-4 pages nia.


17 years ago.

How fast time passes.

Before we even realise it.


Saturday, December 13, 2014

Friday, December 12, 2014


The seasonal housemanship issue propped up again just like our durians.

It is, to me just like other major issues in this country, can only be solved with a serious effort and with a top down political will.

There is no way we can train a competent doctor within 2 years of housemanship, because the level of knowledge of (some...err...most) houseman are about the level of a patient.

And that include myself, a graduate from University of Edinburgh, United Kingdom, a national JPA scholar, top SPM scorer of my time.

During my housemanship, I went into depression twice, once when I cant accept the way we are thrown into the job of conducting delivery without really done one properly myself. Seventeen days of tagging in Labour Ward remains the darkest time of my life.

Second episode of sadness was when I failed my Paediatric assessment. Somewhat lucky, I caught a bug from the children's ward and was very sick, and eventually admitted for lobar pneumonia.

During my admission, I studied and passed the reassessment upon discharge.

The only message that I want to send here is that we are all not prepared for the traditional housemanship programme that our specialists and medical officers (oh, I mean the senior ones because I am a MO myself).

Our 5 years undergraduate, depending on your own initiative and that of your institution, will somewhat just put the initial introduction to what you need to know in this job as a doctor.

To my colleague who disagree, and went through the housemanship smoothly, my hat is down for you.

To my overseas colleague who thinks our housemanship system is flawed, housemen are overworked, please do some attachments here in major tertiary centre.

I do not think superficial improvement, amendments here and there can solve this issue.

This issue needs whole system overhauled, everyone needs to take part and change.

Friday, December 05, 2014


It is December already!

So fast 2014 coming to an end.

A very good question posed by one of my junior during a dinner, did you ever regretted your decision to come back from UK? He is from Cambridge (wuhuuu).

The answer is

Honestly yes. I regretted the fact that I went to UK for medicine.

But no, I will still come back after my undergraduate.

This is not as holy as some say as nationalistic duty or gentleman's word of honour.

It is just, how much time we can afford to lose when we do not spend quality time with those who matters most.